Hush

This past weekend, I worked a confirmation retreat at one of the camps that I work at during the year. Every time I work a confirmation retreat I realize that I love singing. Its like this integral part of me hibernates until somehow and usually out of no where, it reappears. I've been writing down my thoughts lately which has turned into me actually writing some songs for which I can be proud. I've also been getting some advice about song writing and lyrics from a friend which has really helped. I don't think I really have a desire to be some big recording artist but I feel like music is in me to share and it is also my stress-reliever. I've decided I want to make music my job and my life.

Foot on my Throat

Things have not been going well these days. In the last three weeks, I've had to put 1000$ into my car. The break pads that were apparently replaced just before I bought the Jeep were in fact not replaced and a fairly important belt was cracked. So, instead of the oil change that I was expecting to pay for three weeks ago, I had to pay 700$ for replacing my rear break pads, this "really important" belt and an oil change. To add to that, on Tuesday I took my car in to get the newly replaced break pads looked at because they were still squeaking and lucky for me, my mechanic called me up and told me that I needed to get my emergency break pads replaced too because they were grinding metal to metal. Great! Another 300$. Now I have no money and I also just found out that I need to pay the U of A more money in tuition because my student loan didn't cover all of my tuition like they said they were going to. This is even after I called student finances, Canada Student Loans and Alberta Loans. This is also after I had to 700$ more for doing my practicum last semester in Camrose. I thought I was doing the U of A a favour by going to a rural center. I also think I have to get rid of my phone because its costing too much to keep. I also need to get a hair cut but (you guessed it!) I can't afford it!!! This is all so ridiculous.